The following is a devotional I wrote years ago. It has stuck with me so often, thought I would share with you.
September 7, 2013
I just have to share what the Lord taught me in my time with Him this morning.  And how I must confess that I don’t really ‘want’ to spend time with Him on so many occasions, but oh how He speaks and proves himself faithful at just my slightest bit of obedience!
I first opened to Psalm 56:3-4.  “When I am afraid, I will trust in you, in God whose word I praise.”
How many times do I tell this verse to my boys when they are afraid of the dark?  Yet God showed me that mommies can be afraid too.  I struggle so much to just keep everything under control and perfect.  My own strength and efforts fail time after time, and yet instead of letting go, I only cling to my failures and increase my efforts even more!  It’s a vicious cycle.  
This negative cycle is out of fear, and an assured lack of faith in my Creator, who I assume doesn’t  want to be bothered by my ‘trivial’ prayers.  So today I gave him my fears of my boys, and especially my one who drives the most fear in my heart.  I realized that I am afraid of so much, I only wish it was just the monsters under the bed!  
I then turned to my trusted Spurgeon devotional.  And you won’t believe what was there.  
“Bring the boy to me.”  Mark 9:19
Here are Charles Spurgeon’s words:
DESPAIRINGLY the poor disappointed father turned away from the disciples to their Master. His son was in the worst possible condition, and all means had failed, but the miserable child was soon delivered from the evil one when the parent in faith obeyed the Lord Jesus’ word, “Bring him unto me.” Children are a precious gift from God, but much anxiety comes with them. They may be a great joy or a great bitterness to their parents; they may be filled with the Spirit of God, or possessed with the spirit of evil.
In all cases, the Word of God gives us one receipt for the curing of all their ills, “Bring him unto me.” O for more agonizing prayer on their behalf while they are yet babes! Sin is there, let our prayers begin to attack it. Our cries for our offspring should precede those cries which betoken their actual advent into a world of sin. In the days of their youth we shall see sad tokens of that dumb and deaf spirit which will neither pray aright, nor hear the voice of God in the soul, but Jesus still commands, “Bring them unto me.” When they are grown up they may wallow in sin and foam with enmity against God; then when our hearts are breaking we should remember the great Physician’s words, “Bring them unto me.” Never must we cease to pray until they cease to breathe. No case is hopeless while Jesus lives.
The Lord sometimes suffers His people to be driven into a corner that they may experimentally know how necessary He is to them. Ungodly children, when they show us our own powerlessness against the depravity of their hearts, drive us to flee to the strong for strength, and this is a great blessing to us. Whatever our morning’s need may be, let it like a strong current bear us to the ocean of divine love. Jesus can soon remove our sorrow, He delights to comfort us. Let us hasten to Him while He waits to meet us.
So I pray for all of us this morning, that we would “bring the boy to Him.”  Later in Mark 9, Jesus responds to the father of the boy: “If you can?  Everything is possible for one who believes.”  And the father replies, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
May He help us believe with all our hearts that He loves these precious children more than we do, and that everything is possible for one who believes.  Whatever that struggle is today.  May our children – and our fears for them –  rest in His capable hands.

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